Even though I am not a certified psychologist to advice you on your mental conditions and other aspects of your life that keep distracting you from your main goal.. I have a few choice words!
1. It is not tough to be yourself, watch out for signs where you feel that you are constipated in front of others.. Relax and stop being an asshole.. If the next moment you feel like you just had a great bowel movement, you will find that interestingly enough people will notice and start liking you for a change.. It is JUST that simple!
For now, this is all I can think of!
BTW, advice is free.. So said my grandmother..
The knowledge is out there, whether to choose to follow it or fuck it is your predicament..
